Peace?

Peace?

Opposite of Peace is Anxiety

And I woke this morning with lots of anxiety.

Ron is flying home today from Portland, OR

after five days of fun with our son Brandon & his family.

Brandon, Danalyn, Max, Christopher, Treyson & Alexander
Kansas City, Summer 2013

Flying always scares me.  

It. Just. Does.

I set my alarm for 6 a.m.

I am determined to get on a manageable schedule

doing the things I need to do and want to do.

No one can do it for me.

IT ~ physical health, spiritual health, mind health

I was reminded yesterday that we reap what we sow.

How we have to plant good things to grow good things.

I attended Barbara Fairchild & Roy Morris' worship service yesterday morning.

Oh how God met me there.

I had a pretty rough week in some ways

and was feeling torn in a couple of relationships,

feeling like I am doing something wrong

because the "FEELINGS" weren't there that I thought should be.

(Remember: feelings are neither right or wrong ~ they just are!)

Telling myself that ~ a lot!

I was reminded yesterday

to 

that

laughter is good for the soul!

and that it is okay to laugh in church!!

And that we 

Reap what we Sow

If we plant Honesty we gain Trust

If we plant Forgiveness we gain Reconciliation

If we plant Love we will Be a Blessing

Oh how I want to be a blessing to others.

And then this morning

So first I had to find out what propitiation meant.

Normally I would call Pastor Charles but I didn't think he

would like a phone call at 5 a.m. :)

So I checked on line

and this what I found

Propitiation: an action meant to regain someone's favor

or make up for something you did wrong

Jesus did nothing wrong 

yet He gave His life for me.

Jesus died for me, for my wrong doings.

He didn't have to do that but He did!!

He chose to give His life for me.

How awesome is that???

And I thought back over the past week.

I walked out of a meeting because I got angry.

What would Jesus have done?

I think he would have stayed and talked it out,

try to reconcile the differences.

I know I was wrong to just leave

and God has been dealing with me

each and every day.

And yesterday I was reminded

that God gives me a choice every day

to live like him or go against him.

Psalm 118:5-9

It is not what or how others treat me or feel about me 

that is important

but that Jesus loves me for me

and is always there/here for me.

I need to remember to 

NOT People

It is God's approval not man or woman's

that should be important to me.

I have always sought people out 

to love me, like me,

try to be the perfect daughter,

wife, mother, sister & friend

(which I am definitely not perfect)

seeking others approval

and I need to remember that

what really only matters is that 

I love God,

live my life for God

and Trust in Him

and that NO matter what happens in life

I will always be okay,

I will always be loved

by the One that matters.

Help me not to focus on

 but

In Jesus I have Peace,

that people don't bring me peace

but

JESUS does!!!

Out in the world

there is chaos and hurt

BUT

in Jesus' arms

I have peace.

Thank you Lord for the reminders yesterday 

and again this morning

that You are always with me.

That you know my needs and desires

and through it all

I am never truly alone

as You walk beside me day by day.

Lord I turn Ron over to you today

as he flies home.  

Be with the pilots as they wing through the air

bringing my sweet hubby home to me.

Give Ron a relaxing day

and thank you that he was allowed 

the time to be with Brandon and his family

for a few days.

And for encouraging me as I struggled

through some tough situations.  Amen.