Today is a hard day!
Tears are flowing. I am feeling like just giving up today. Maybe that is what I need to do is just give up and let the Lord take over. Though I thought I was doing that already...giving my life and each day to the Lord. Guess I needed to let go some more. So today I sit here at the computer with tears streaming down my face, wanting to just cry and wonder why do we have so many issues with this darn motor home.
So we have put a new starter in and now Ron went and bought a new battery as well. And all I can do is cry...what are the tears for I ask myself?
Because I feel like most every turn we have made the last two weeks has cost us time and money to fix this motor home. And we are running out of resources. We have worked, borrowed and been gifted money to make this trip to Texas and yet it seems like more is expected and needed. We know that we are going to a job that we believe the Lord has allowed us to be given. We just have to get there.
We have made plans and changed those plans and made more new plans. We have gotten it down to 1659.9 miles from here in Fresno. CA to D'Hanis, TX. I am glad we have seen our kids and grandkids, my aunt & uncle and also Ron's cousins. We are cutting corners every where we can...now I just have to hope and pray that we have cut enough to get us there all in one piece and without any more tears. What good are the tears any way? None really. So now I have quit crying and wiped away my tears. I will take a deep breath and pull up my "big girl panties" as my friend Heather says and move forward.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings. Now I think I will go work on my pictures for my blogs. That will bring me joy! Happy memories and beautiful scenery. All will bring a smile back to my face and my heart.
Oh Alice...I feel your pain! Just keep trusting in the Lord. He may have other plans for you. Seek out His answers. I'm doing the same thing. It's kind of like in the song "Jesus Take the Wheel". Sometime I think we fight it..and take the wheel and do what we think is the right road. He will lead you...
ReplyDeletePraying for you Alice. Been there many times and sometimes all you can do is hang on and trust that the One who created you knows how it will all work out. Don't feel bad for weeping, sometimes that is just what we need. Hang in there...
ReplyDeleteActually, I find that tears can be quite therapeutic at times. You will get through this, Alice, but I'm so sorry that you are experiencing all these difficulties.
ReplyDelete((((Ali)))) Romans 8:28
ReplyDeleteOh Sweet Alice... how does that saying go? What doesn't break us will make us stronger?
ReplyDelete(I remember it from the old Rozanne TV series theme song)
I guess all we can do is be open to what is coming next, and look ahead with a positive nature?
I wish I had a thousand dollars to mail to you... five thousand... ten thousand. I wish!
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Karen and Steve
(Our Blog) RVing: Small House... BIG Backyard
http://kareninthewoods-kareninthewoods.blogspot.com/
I also was thinking how I want to send you money, via paypal to your email. Do you have a paypal account? It would be a good thing and so all of us who could maybe just send a little to help out would be able to do so. It might add up and I think it would make me feel better than just giving advice or words, more words, too many words. God Knows. Sometimes we just need to have things made a little easier on the pocketbook! GOD WILL PROVIDE! We do have to have the way cleared for us to receive and to give also. We're all in this together! Just to let you know, I've had those crying bouts too so it can't just be yours (or mine) situation or whatever circumstances we seem to be stressed about. Although in a different situation, I feel the same things you do. Just wanting and needing to know our Abba is caring for us. We have to KNOW THIS and believe by FAITH even if we do not see (however, you and I do both have a LOT to be thankful for, tangible BLESSINGS! we can see!)... but sometimes we just also need God with skin on and a hug now and then to help us remember! He knows what we're going through! Comfort one another with kindness! IN JESUS LOVE! Roxine
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